I LOOKED FOR HER

M. Shayne Bell

In mountain places and on sere plateaus, I looked for her.
Ascetics from their caves had fled those heights. I looked for her.
 
On windswept beaches of a palm-fringed bay, I looked for her.
In surging tides, I feared for paradise. I looked for her.
 
In line at food banks that ran out of food, I looked for her.
I’d lost my job: I’d failed at rolling dice. I looked for her.
 
In homeless camps along old rail tracks, I looked for her.
Few blankets there; rain drizzled through the night. I looked for her.
 
In boats of refugees, I took my place. I looked for her.
With grieving men, I sat to hear last rites. I looked for her.

 

M. SHAYNE BELL received a Creative Writing Fellowship from the National Endowment for the Arts (1991). His poem, “One Hundred Years of Russian Revolution," was a finalist for the Rhysling Award (1989). His poetry has been published in Modern Haiku, The Heron's NestThe Fibonacci Review, The Ghazal Page, Shot Glass Journal, Dialogue, Sunstone, Amazing Stories, Asimov’s, etc. Bell also publishes science fiction, and has been a finalist for the Hugo and Nebula awards. He received a first place Writers of the Future award (1990).